“I’ve Got My Erection Back!”
That was what Monica saying to Chandler when she got the idea of making folders contain job descriptions (FRIENDS, season 8). Monica is a person who is crazy about organizing things, that is why, making folders with different categories of jobs and different color labels, was excited her a lot! The passion in her eyes, the way she talked, making me feel so jealous!
Jealous? Yupe, jealous!! I miss to have such passion in life. Passion in doing something that you are really like to do, that you fall in love with. Therefore, borrowing Monica’s term, I want to have "the erection" in my life.
Recently, my boyfriend’s writing got published in one of Kolkata newspaper. Though it is not my writing, I feel so proud… but also envy him. Envy him in the sense, he dare to challenge himself, racing with time and trying to realize his dream. He always wants to be a journalist, while he is doing engineering. Well, not like me, he is pretty good in engineering field, so actually he got no problem to continue his career in engineering. However, he still got this excitement to pursue his dream, not just being "NATO" (No Action Talk Only).
On the other hand, I always bubble up that I want to have my own magazine or I wanna do advertising or I wanna be a designer (web designer, etc), but… I never really try to realize any of that. Well, writing a blog is one way to stimulate my enthusiasm, but I wanna do more! Just.. sometimes it is hard for me to be consistent. There are always excuses to delay. It is true that your biggest enemy is yourself. But.. actually I don’t want to reflect myself as my own enemy. I have to work together with "her", and convince "her" that "we" are still young, "we" have the times and opportunities to reach our dream. Again, I yearn for "the erection", to discover my talent, and to craft whatever I can, with the best effort I coudl give…
The other thing that I would like to highlight in this article is… it is a wonder how a person can touch others’ life. Here, I have found people who is inspiring me. The way they living their life has touched mine somehow.
When I shared about how my boyfriend has inspired me, my housemate also can feel that passion and get the enthuasiasm, and I also feel happier somehow.You know, when a positive energy struck somebody, that someone can pass the energy to others. Well, kinda inspired by The Zahir (Paolo Coelho) here. However, what we usualy do, we pass the negative energy or just simply block ourselves to others. We might be spending time, talking, laughing with others, but we do not open ourselves as such. Just wondering, if we pass the positive energy more often, maybe our life could be a lil’ bit brighter… Hahaha, neways, just a small concept that passing inside my brain just now…
Okie, have to go shopping right now… I hope you already find your passion in life, or if you have not, maybe together we can try to find out and share it with other people… Have a nice day!!!
September 4th, 2005 at 5:42 am
Hey Ya gal..
Love to give a comment on this one…
It’s such a subject since I graduated from uni…
Well anyway… I got a job after I graduated. I did that purely for money
I forgot about things I planned… actually, I didn’t care about anything.
I just needed money for hell ya had fun, holidays and some more crapsss…
And now, when everything started to settle… I got damn bored because I do things that I don’t like to do… I got job with good money, but I hate the job.
I lost my erection… hell ya I miss my erection…