Britgalhere World

We are mirror to each other. We can see ourselves in others’ eyes, in others’ life. Nowadays, my mirrors seem a bit dark and grey. I can see and I can feel… heavy atmosphere with scarlet pain, tears from sore eyes, confusion, and torn feelings. And the reason behind those is… love.

One might say, “That sounds ridiculous. All those troubles happen just because of love. What are these people doing, aren’t they have anything to do better?” However, my friends, we can deny but we can not avoid the fact that love is one thing that keeps the world turning (although we can see that from many different perspectives).

Neways, I used to look my mirrors with envy and jealousy feelings. I’ve been in kind of journey; a journey to find “my home”, someone that I can stay with, I can “end-up” with. All I want is just a relationship with a destination. We might fall along the way or just get separate in two different paths, but at least… I could be in one steady relationship and fight together with the one whom I love.

When I looked into my mirrors, it seemed that they already there. When I was still dwelling with uncertainty or the fact that the fairytale must come to end, they seemed already be found by a prince in shining armor on white horse who would take them to a beautiful castle near by the sea.

However, what happened next is, their journey to the castle looked as if it was too secure and safe. Then, there were a tickle of weary that teasing them to find another adventure or just too make sure that this prince charming is “the one”. The prince might be truly charming, but how about what we want is a warrior who is quite rude but tough or maybe only a peasant who could understand who we are, who could understand our passion and desire for life……

In other mirror, I could see that they do not want a castle near by the sea, they want to hold the world in their hand, and it is just not the time to settle down in a castle though it is near by the sea with beautiful sunrise and sunset.

The love is still there. However, the vibes is not there anymore. One question is then floating in the air, “When the sensation is not there anymore, is it because we feel comfort or is it a sign of bored?” In the beginning of relationship, everything feels like magic. But then, it seems like there would be a time when we would say, “Okie, I know I love you and love me, that is it.” When we are getting to the comfort zone–everything is okie and stable, I’ve got a great partner, we already have plan in hand–sometimes it is easy to be tempted by something else, suddenly there is a rush feeling and craving for “new electric waves” in our life.

Then, how we can recapture the magic? How we can spice the relationship? Is it the matter of being faith? Is it the matter of understanding each other? Or is it the time that we say, “Cmon, life is supposed to be like this or it is not a relationship without get through this phase…” I have a lot of questions in my mind.

One day, I get freak out when I am again mirroring to other’s people life. It is like inevitable. For the time being, I just can say to myself to live every moment I spend with him, to treasure every spark of the magic. And when in case “it” happens to us, I will remember all those loves and happiness I have shared with him, and preserve the vibes in our relationship. Although, I do hope we will never lost what we have right now. Well, people can always hoping, don’t they? J

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