Britgalhere World

"… if you are near a person who really nice, really good, you feel like…"

"…shit?"

Not really exactly the same but that is one conversation I had collected in my memory from "The Last King of Scotland". Have you ever felt like that? When you are sourrounded by successful, pretty, smart people… or live among nice good people… sometimes it feels like something wrong with you and then unconsciously you keep comparing yourself to them… One time you get motivated, the other time you are struggling to convince yourself you are not the alien here… Never feel like that? Good for you!! ^_^

When I hear the conversation above(which somehow automatically stored in my tiny brain =D), it was a bit relieve that people sometimes do feel like that. I am in a condition where I feel like I am in a deep shit while everybody else is running free to their goal post and celebrate their victory with champagne in their hands…

Then I saw this movie Bedazzled (Brendan Fraser)… where this guy is given seven wishes by the sexy pretty devil; in return he has to give his soul…

He then gets transformed into couple version of he himself as per his wishes. However none of his dreams really end up good. In one version, he married with the girl he loved, but the girl didn’t love him back, he was rich but actually his business was selling drugs and by the end of the day he was betrayed and about getting killed… The other version shows him as a very popular and successful basketball player, but had very little… (don’t think I can write here =D). And also there is a version when he become a famous writer, handsome, smart, rich, whom people adored, and finally he wooed the girl that he loves, but when he brought the girl home, his partner was waiting for him in his bed… turned out… he was gay…

From this simple and fun movie, the message is you might think some people seemed to have everything. Everything that you just will die for. But, actually every person has his/her own problems or flaws that you don’t have and maybe you can’t even live with it… And when you stop wanting to be that other person and start to live your life to the fullest then you will find how beautifuly God has planned and maintained yours…

It always looks greener from the other side =)

It is so easy writing this post… I hope I could be more grateful about my own life…

Mother mother how’s the family, I’m just calling to say hello
How’s the weather how’s my father am I lonely heavens no
Mother mother are you listening, just a phone call to ease your mind
Life is perfect never better, distance making the heart grow blind

When you sent me off to see the world, where you scared that I might get hurt
Would I try a little tobacco, would I keep on hiking up my skirt

I’m hungry
I’m dirty
I’m losing my mind
Everything’s fine

I’m freezing
I’m starving
I’m bleeding to death
Everything’s fine

Yeah, I’m working, making money I’m just starting to build a name
I can feel it around the corner, I could make it any day
Mother mother can you hear me, sure I’m sober sure I’m sane
Life is perfect never better, still your daughter still the same

If I tell you what you want to hear, will it help you to sleep well at night
Are you sure that I’m your perfect dear, now just cuddle up and sleep tight

I’m hungry
I’m dirty
I’m losing my mind
Everything’s fine

I’m freezing
I’m starving
I’m bleeding to death
Everything’s fine

I miss you
I love you

I’m just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I’d rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I’d be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like ‘fourteen miles away’

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I’m sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I’m cold as cold as cold can be
Be

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jets, I’m sunk, I’m left behind
I’m treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I’m reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow yeah
Just to prove that I knew how yeah
It’s midnight’s late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
So thought no end my need to fall

into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean…end it all

into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(into space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)

(http://youtube.com/watch?v=34kgciQyGbk)