Silent Goodnight

June 7th, 2007 by britgalhere

Two souls meet tonight…

She can gasp the smell of cigarette collides with soft soap fragrant from him. His warm smile lightens up the dark color of the night. He could reach her small fingers and dive into her pearly eyes where he likes to drown and rest in it.

They just fall into each other arms. Holding each other tight. No space no distance.

A darling she is. Small and beautifully fragile like a morning’s dew. Jumping up and down like child, one day she could spread joy with her smile and the other day she will just sit in the corner playing with the dark and dust. Nothing he wants to do except binding her in his sheet of love.

In her childlike mind, he is just like a big colorful umbrella; no rain nor could sun hurt her in his shelter. His dreams floating around like colorful bubbles and she could just fly high with them. Nothing more she hopes except to flow her love to endless sea of him.

Two souls meet tonight…

Riding the night breeze, meeting the other half … just in their heart… just in their mind. As real as a shadow, as translucent as the cold wind.

Two souls meet tonight… just another silent goodnight….

Pullstop

June 3rd, 2007 by britgalhere

Hundred thousands words…
Repeated, copy-pasted, new lines, old lines…
Dramas, lullabies, myths, letters, letters, letters…
I need a pullstop…
Not three, damn it.. A Pullstop!
.
There you go. A Pullstop.

Yippie!!! I am Not the Worst!!!

May 9th, 2007 by britgalhere

A: [Wajah memelas, tampang kucel --- seperti rata-rata anak ITB ;D] Anjr*******tttt, ujian tadi kacaaawww… gue cuman bisa jawab 6 soal dari 10!!!
B: [Kaget] Eh, tadi ada 10 soal ya? Gue cuman ngeliat 5 soal, itu juga cuman kejawab 3!!!
A: [Memberikan tampang prihatin] Iya… ya… tenanglah… banyak yang gak bisa juga… [diam-diam meringis senang dalam hati, "Ada yang lebih parah dari gue euy!!!"]

Salah seorang senior-berbadan ceking dan bertampang pas-pasan tapi bermulut manis sehingga banyak cewek yang tergoda (loh kok jadi ngomongin dia??)- pernah menyatakan rasa kecewanya, "Harusnya orang-orang itu seneng kalo dia emang bisa ngerjain ujiannya, bukannya karena orang-orang lain ada yang lebih gak bisa dari dia…"

Well, having a bless to keep breathing in 25.5 years, in many case I do have experiences where I feel better when I find that I am not the worst, that there are other people who are more unlucky than me… Di satu sisi, gue pikir itu hal yang positif setidaknya bisa membuat seseorang berhenti mengeluh bahwa dialah yang paling malang di dunia yang fana ini… (ckckckc…) dan bangkit berdiri dan mengambil langkah ke depan. Hanya ‘aja, gue berpikir, kenapa manusia sering membuat hidup jadi kompleks dan begitu susah untuk mensyukuri apa yang dia punya atau dapatkan, tanpa harus membandingkan dengan orang lain?

Jadi inget lagunya Morrisey, "We hate it when our friend becomes successful…"
Hope the human species will not only feel good when he is "higher" than others…

Lirik Puitis, Ke Manakah Dirimu?

May 3rd, 2007 by britgalhere

Mengering sudah bunga di pelukan…
Merpati putih berarak pulang, terbang menerjang badai…
Tinggi di awan, menghilang di langit yang hitam
Selamat berpisah, kenangan bercinta…
Sampai kapankah jadinya aku harus menunggu?
Hari bahagia seperti dulu…

Sepenggal lirik dari Merpati Putih, ost Badai Pasti Berlalu film tahun 1981 yang di-remake baru-baru ini. Gak perlu diuraikan, di mana sentuhan puitis ditorehkan pada lirik lagu di atas :)

Gue adalah salah satu fan dari lirik lagu. Bagi gue lirik menentukan keutuhan sebuah lagu. Kalau kamu sempat nonton film "Music & Lyric", kurang lebih pendapat gue sama seperti pendapat Drew Barrymore di film itu. Musik itu ibarat penampilan fisik yang umumnya memikat orang pada pandangan pertama dari lagu. Lirik adalah jiwa dari lagu, it is the soul of a song or a music. Lirik yang buruk bisa membuat lagu yang enak banget di telinga jadi gak berkenan di hati. Liriklah yang jadi senjata ampuh sehingga musik atau sebuah lagu bisa jadi kendaraan waktu yang mampu melesat ke masa lalu, mengajakmu ke masa depan, dan menarikmu lagi ke masa kini. Liriklah yang bisa merangkum semua memori dan perasaan, membingkisnya dengan cantik, dan menyimpannya dengan apik di bawah pohon waktu.

Belakangan ini, kalo gue perhatikan lagu-lagu Indonesia, terutama lagu-lagu pop,  cenderung memiliki lirik yang catchy dan lugas. Gue gak mengatakan kalau lirik-lirik itu jelek atau murahan. Buktinya lirik "Lelaki…. Buaya Darat, busyet aku tertipu lagi…" milik Ratu, bener-bener memberikan soul yang lincah dan muda pada lagu "Lelaki Buaya Darat".

Hanya ‘aja, gue kangen dengan lagu-lagu puitis yang sedikit bermain dengan kata-kata; "Tuliskan semua kesedihan semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan. Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku. Buang semua puisi antara kita berdua, kau bunuh dia sesuatu yang kusebut itu cinta…" Hapus Aku - Nidji. Gak sulit untuk mengerti maksud dari lirik lagunya, tapi Nidji berhasil meninggalkan kesan yang lebih dalam lewat pilihan kata-katanya.

Musik, lagu, atau nyanyian, bisa jadi media untuk menuangkan citra rasa sastra yang gak harus dikungkum dalam bentuk novel atau prosa.
Gue berharap pengarang atau pencipta lagu jaman sekarang juga tertarik untuk memperhatikan kualitas liriknya, bukan sekedar mengejar popularitas pasar. Boleh donk sekedar memberi input? ;)

Hmm, jadi inget lagu dari Rida, Sita, Dewi: "Angkasa tanpa pesan, merengkuh semakin dalam. Berselimut debu waktu, ku menanti resah… Kau datang dengan sederhana. Satu bintang di langit kelam, sinarmu rimba pesona, dan kutahu… tlah tersesat…"

Maybe, I should try to create one someday? Hehehe…

I Don’t Love You - My Chemical Romance

April 16th, 2007 by britgalhere

When the city of angel is no longer a sanctuary
And freedom is just another cold damp dark prison
And the only shadow is your fading silhouette
It is time to go home…
……………………….
But what is home?

Well when you go
Don’t ever think I’ll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I’ll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You’re still the good-for-nothing I don’t know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out… While you can…

When you go, would you even turn to say
I don’t love you like I did yesterday

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It’s where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar’s just another blow
So fix yu eyes and get up
Better get up while you can

When you go, would you even turn to say
I don’t love you like I did yesterday

Well come on, come on…

When you go, would you have the guts to say
I don’t love you like I loved you yesterday

I don’t love you like I loved you yesterday

I don’t love you like I loved you yesterday

She’s My Ride Home Lyrics

April 14th, 2007 by britgalhere

Dedicated for Paulus Tamba… as per your request man… enjoy!! Btw, didn’t really get the meaning, but sure it sounds surreal.. (hohoho… meminjam istilah Bond-X…)

We talked
Together sharpening a knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey we can hide the bodies on the ride home

Now here we are
We’re licking skin to wipe us clean
Strike a match, pour gasoline
Ditch the scene and watch this city burn
Sleep, my lap will be a pillow
Steering wheel turn

I’ll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares, no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
But I told you
I told you we’d do it

So ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won

We Drive
To leave the past and clear the mind
to watch the sunset set its time
I swear you’ll find
I’m your ride home

Now close your eyes
its’ getting dark and the highways clear
No sign of life from front to rear
Its just you my dear
On the ride home
We’re going home

I’ll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares, no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
But I told you
I told you we’d do it

So ha ha ha ha
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won

We talked
Together sharpening a knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey we can hide the bodies on the ride home
Cause we’re going home

I’ll be reaching for the stars with you (honey)
Who cares if no one else believes
So I, set fire to everyone around
But I told you
I told you we’d do it

So ha ha ha ha (we won)
ha ha ha ha (oh yeah we won)
ha ha ha ha (we won)
ha ha ha ha
Yeah we won
Yeah we won

(wanna listen to the song? http://youtube.com/watch?)v=MSheoUQOAR8)

He is Handsome, Smart, Successful… but…

February 20th, 2007 by britgalhere

"… if you are near a person who really nice, really good, you feel like…"

"…shit?"

Not really exactly the same but that is one conversation I had collected in my memory from "The Last King of Scotland". Have you ever felt like that? When you are sourrounded by successful, pretty, smart people… or live among nice good people… sometimes it feels like something wrong with you and then unconsciously you keep comparing yourself to them… One time you get motivated, the other time you are struggling to convince yourself you are not the alien here… Never feel like that? Good for you!! ^_^

When I hear the conversation above(which somehow automatically stored in my tiny brain =D), it was a bit relieve that people sometimes do feel like that. I am in a condition where I feel like I am in a deep shit while everybody else is running free to their goal post and celebrate their victory with champagne in their hands…

Then I saw this movie Bedazzled (Brendan Fraser)… where this guy is given seven wishes by the sexy pretty devil; in return he has to give his soul…

He then gets transformed into couple version of he himself as per his wishes. However none of his dreams really end up good. In one version, he married with the girl he loved, but the girl didn’t love him back, he was rich but actually his business was selling drugs and by the end of the day he was betrayed and about getting killed… The other version shows him as a very popular and successful basketball player, but had very little… (don’t think I can write here =D). And also there is a version when he become a famous writer, handsome, smart, rich, whom people adored, and finally he wooed the girl that he loves, but when he brought the girl home, his partner was waiting for him in his bed… turned out… he was gay…

From this simple and fun movie, the message is you might think some people seemed to have everything. Everything that you just will die for. But, actually every person has his/her own problems or flaws that you don’t have and maybe you can’t even live with it… And when you stop wanting to be that other person and start to live your life to the fullest then you will find how beautifuly God has planned and maintained yours…

It always looks greener from the other side =)

It is so easy writing this post… I hope I could be more grateful about my own life…

Mother Mother

February 13th, 2007 by britgalhere

Mother mother how’s the family, I’m just calling to say hello
How’s the weather how’s my father am I lonely heavens no
Mother mother are you listening, just a phone call to ease your mind
Life is perfect never better, distance making the heart grow blind

When you sent me off to see the world, where you scared that I might get hurt
Would I try a little tobacco, would I keep on hiking up my skirt

I’m hungry
I’m dirty
I’m losing my mind
Everything’s fine

I’m freezing
I’m starving
I’m bleeding to death
Everything’s fine

Yeah, I’m working, making money I’m just starting to build a name
I can feel it around the corner, I could make it any day
Mother mother can you hear me, sure I’m sober sure I’m sane
Life is perfect never better, still your daughter still the same

If I tell you what you want to hear, will it help you to sleep well at night
Are you sure that I’m your perfect dear, now just cuddle up and sleep tight

I’m hungry
I’m dirty
I’m losing my mind
Everything’s fine

I’m freezing
I’m starving
I’m bleeding to death
Everything’s fine

I miss you
I love you

Into the Ocean - Blue October

February 13th, 2007 by britgalhere

I’m just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I’d rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I’d be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like ‘fourteen miles away’

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I’m sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out

The lighthouse beam has just run out
I’m cold as cold as cold can be
Be

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
The jets, I’m sunk, I’m left behind
I’m treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I’m reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow yeah
Just to prove that I knew how yeah
It’s midnight’s late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
So thought no end my need to fall

into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean…end it all

into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don’t know how
Sometimes it feels just like I’m falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now…come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(into space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)

(http://youtube.com/watch?v=34kgciQyGbk)

Hari Ini…

January 9th, 2007 by britgalhere

Tapak-tapak kakiku membekas di atas salju putih. Pelukan dingin Desember masih merangkul manjanya hari. Matahari bersinar lembut berbaur di langit biru abu-abu yang hampir ungu…

Tersibak danau putih di balik pepohonan yang syahdu tanpa hijaunya dedaunan… Dan aku berdiri di tepian… Sendiri… Memandang musim semi di seberang… Memandang mereka yang berlarian, tertawa dengan pipi merahnya, bernyanyi, dan bergulingan di rerumputan segar…

Es meretas di putihnya sang danau… Mungkinkah musim semi berlari nakal ke dunia ini? Dinginnya hati sedikit tersapu oleh hangatnya harap. Senja sunyi perlahan menggulirkan damainya senandung biru… Jiwa ini beku terlalu lama dan ia temukan bahagia dalam pilu bekunya…

Aah, mungkin belum waktunya… Dan kubiarkan diriku di sana… Menyatu dalam dunia biru abu-abu yang hampir ungu…